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Ocean Calling

The ocean, the beach- it's like pure medicine to me. I need to live near it. Too much time without gazing at the horizon, too much time without touching my toes to the water, or walking on the sand and I break a little inside. While California water gets cold, dipping into it and floating on its surface, the temperature doesn't matter to me. It's healing and as I grow older, I become more and more self aware of a much needed connection I have to the sea that I just cannot ignored. During my time in college, a great professor, downright scared me. He scared me because he spoke of "burning out." He shared that many students he would talk with after graduating did not want to photograph anymore. Since then, I have burnt out, many times.  My relationship with photography has been a continual rollercoaster of love and hate. I'm always wanting to get better and in response to this, I've gotten angry. I push myself and I burn out. But, then I get anxious and I need to create. I need to pick up that camera.

The ocean helps. It inspires. It heals. It reignites the flame. It's a reset for me, a way of stepping back and acknowledging the grandness of the world. It's hard to do that in the world today. There is a constant demand of instant, new work. Share! Share! Share! But it's in those moments of rest for me that the seed of something great has time to develop, to be created. I need to live a life, in order to create something lasting.

The ocean is an inspiration to so many and means a great different things to people. But here, this story is a reflection of the calm, the quiet, and the stillness it can bring directly to one's soul.

Model Kelly Coker shows up as the ultimate beach goddess in Malibu, California.

Makeup by Maddie Buffardi

Photography & Art Direction: Sidney Kraemer

Photography Assistant: Alexa Smith

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Painted Gems

For those of you that don't know, over the last couple months I have had the privilege of being part of parsonsxteenvogue. I absolutely love, love learning and am always looking for ways to educate myself further, expand, and continue to be well rounded. When I heard that Parsons School of Design was partnering with Teen Vogue I immediately wanted to find out more about the program. The two icons of the fashion industry decided to get together and offer a boat load of information and as someone who shoots fashion, I thought it would be valuable to know more about each facet. While I primarily deal with a finished product before it goes out to consumers, It has been both eye-opening and inspiring to see the makings of this vast enterprise.

Recently we had the opportunity to make our own product. If y'all follow me on instagram you were able to see the final product of my own concept over there. For those of you that missed it check out the picture below.

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Inspired by an image I took of the American flag, I just kept mulling over the blue and the stars-Stars and shinning. Sparkles. Diamonds. Shine bright like a diamond-my mind is friggin crazy but let's not get into that. Without millions of dollars to spend on diamonds I thought of my options and the idea to paint the entire necklace came to me. I wanted to be obvious it was painted and lots of canvas to show.

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I had lots of fun with the details. A huge fan of bows, a big black ribbon was used to tie it around the neck. To secure the ribbon, I found a couple beautiful abalone shells (in the back drawer of my closet) and hand sewed them on with a thick gold thread.

It was so good to use my hands in a different way than usual and get back to my fine art roots in painting. As an artist I am super proned to self-loathing and criticizing, definitely my own worst critic, but I am so happy to wear this necklace I am thinking to create a few for some last minute holidays gifts!