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New Year, Rebirth

Resolutions, 2018

 

A little late for myself, nevertheless I'm doing this! YES, another post about New Years. Ha! But still here it is. It feels almost incomplete without it...

and last year went by for me, in a blur--a big big blur. This year in order to hold myself accountable, and be able to look back, I am writing out my intentions for the next year,

as both a creative and a human being.

Here they are in no particular order 

  1. Start working with motion again
  2. Create one self portrait a week
  3. No instagram looking at night in bed; pick up books again, watch documentaries instead
  4. Write in a journal at least twice a week
  5. Finish 4 Family Albums for Billy
  6. Have a more carbon conscience diet, less red meat
  7. Bring my camera on more everyday events, stop relying on my cellphone camera, document what might seem mundane
  8. Connect with more local people
  9. Find a charity that I can become passionate about
  10. Wear heels more
  11. Connect even more with the people I'm shooting
  12. Allow more spontaneity to occur in my daily life
  13. Continue to take care of my body
  14. Read more ART books!
  15. See more Art
  16. Continue to learn experiment with cooking and new recipes
  17. Make my work more like the masters
  18. Ignore any fear
  19. Show more women how beautiful they are
  20. Look for, find, be, and create the beauty in a sometimes dark world

A bit of a manifesto for the new year. Like a giant todo list for me. I'm so happy I'm writing it here! What are your guys'?

Wishing all the success in yours on this time of new birth...

"The only way to deal with an unfree world

is to become

absolutely free

that your very existence

is an act of

rebellion."

-Albert Camus

Shoot and Be Shot + Being a finalist in the 8th Julia Margaret Cameron Awards

One of the most rewarding parts about being a photographer is being able to document the important moments of my life. While you rarely see me take a selfie, a self portrait - on the other hand - is a different story. And I think it's probably time I embrace the selfie game anyway. But back to where I was going...when I first started taking pictures in college, I often had to use myself as the subject for assignments. As anyone knows, being in front of the camera is a lot different than being behind the camera. I think doing both is important. Ever see a model become a photographer or a model/photographer? There must be a good reason for that, right?

Being in front of the camera will make you a better photographer and picking up a camera will make you a better model. It allows you to step into the other persons shoes. For instance, after being behind the camera I am much better at communicating and directing my models. I learned that models need feedback. A successful shoot has plenty of communication. Saying the model does everything perfect, repeatably, will become insincere and loose its authenticity. Which is not going to make them perform their best. But, not enough communication leaves room for questions - What is the photographer looking for? What should I be doing? What do they want? Not to mention self doubt might creep in! Ah!! Same for the other side, those individuals that shoot in addition to modeling, know things that help make the shoot go smoother. They know how important light is and how it works. They play their bodies to the light. They might even know what a photographer is going to say before they say it!  It is just like another form of practicing, practicing from a different angle, a different perspective.

Now, after school, I found myself not as frequently in front of the camera. There were no friends calling me to shoot last minute assignments and my fashion work definitely did not call for a 5 and 1/2 of an inch small fry. But I wanted to get back in front of the camera to remind myself how the models feel, to sharpen my communication. So, I started shooting a lot of self portraits again, and mostly with my daughter to document our relationship and her ever-changing growth. Today, I wanted to share an image I took of the two of us that was chosen as a finalist in the 8th Julia Margaret Cameron Awards. As a finalist, my image will be exhibited in the Berlin Biennial 2016! I feel so grateful and excited to be honored alongside such talented artists from around the world. Check out the galleries of the awardees and finalists here. Now, if only I can get over there to see it all. I got time though, maybe it will happen...

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